I have not written since the beginning of August. My life kind of turned upside down with heartbreaking news at work.
My beloved pilot program that I have been with for more than 2.5 years had lost its funding. The team that has made me the happiest in a workplace would be dismantled. And we were devastated. It sounds dramatic to say devastated, but my team of 12 workers and 3 bosses were so cohesive and so tight knit, we finished each others' sentences. In some weird, crazy way, it feels like a death in the family. We are still grieving and processing the loss of something we poured our hearts into. We were a dedicated, passionate bunch who genuinely believed in the work that we did.
Four of the 12 would be laid off. One of the three was let go.
I'm currently finishing one case in one program, transitioning out of my program that lost its funding, and training in a new program within my agency. My seniority allowed me to be placed elsewhere.
My mind is in all kinds of places. I find myself asking others to repeat. I find myself spacing out. I feel like I am on a different planet.
And to top it off, I am soon to start a new per diem hospital gig in the next two weeks.
As you can imagine, my brain is not all there.
I haven't gone to yoga in weeks because I'm so tired after work. Currently splitting my time between three programs that demand full time dedication is exhausting.
As sad I am to see my current program officially end October 16, I am looking forward to life finding balance again.
I am exhausted. I am emotionally and physically drained.
Once life settles down again, I hope to get back onto blogging. And I do look forward to catching up with some of my favorite bloggers.
Til next time,